Reflections on Life

By: Marc B.

What I continually find to be true in my life is this: everything you need and could possibly want that is worth any value is free.

Sure there are things we must work for and acquire that cost money. But all work and reward is simply to maintain self pride and self worth. If there wasn’t self pride, what would there be? And the things we work hard for don’t last. What lasts is the smile on our faces from achieving a goal.

I have seen my dad work his life away as hard as he can to become a millionaire. I have seen him buy boats and luxury cars. I grew up in a comfortable house with comfortable pillows that were always clean. All the happiness he has ever seen comes from the island he visits and his family. Not his autos. He has children and is in Love, and that makes him happy.

Love is free. I have learned that as well. There is something to be said about love. How it is ever changing. Continually renewing itself, proving to you that it doesn’t get better than here and now. Love is about the moment. With each new moment we are proven wrong…It can get better.

There is something to be said about people. I think at one time we all feel like were missing out. Like the whole world is there without us, at some party, and we weren’t invited. Truthfully, everyone is just as busy as you are, and most people feel left out of a grand scheme that isn’t really there. All we can do is value our friendships that are true and real, and move on through each day.

I have happiness. There is something to be said about that. I am grateful to have happiness when it is there, for I know there are people without it. This is not to say I am always happy, but I do extremely value the time when I am, and I cherish and praise the people who help make me happy in my life. Rick, Amy, Nicole, Katie, and Cassandra.

I have music. There is something t obe said about that. I have a whole language I can use to speak to the world. I have the ability to flush my mind clean by writing down what is trapped inside. I can close my eyes and make beautiful music for everyone, and for that I am most ecstatic.

Life is free. Once in awhile, someone in my life will die, or develop cancer, or get thrown in jail, or overdose, or flunk out of college. It is these times when I am reminded that life is free and it can be taken away at any moment. I choose to celebrate my today, which I know is a controversial choice. Many will remind me of tomorrow, warning the problems of tomorrow and asking for fear from me. To them I answer only that I will only live for today, and tomorrow will eventually become today, in which case if the problems are still there, then I can act to solve them.

I like many many people. I am grateful for the large groups of friends I have chosen to associate with. Many of you I haven’t seen in some time. Don’t think of this as a negative thing. In the real life, we all grow and become adults. We go from being small children in adult bodies to actual adults who are capable of taking over the world. I am some where in the middle of my growth, learning to endure real life while still having fun. It is sometimes tough.

I thank those who are there for me. If you read this, you’re there. You either really really like me or you really really don’t, and its YOU, (esspecially the few who don’t like me) who make me who I am. It’s YOU who shape my character. I am so glad you good people are there to pick me up when I fall, and I’m glad you ignorants are there to piss me off, so I have some fuel to feed off.

So thanks. I’ll end it here.

-Marc